Fight

what the hell yaar..... i failed once again. The mistakes i make everytime cannot be even termed as silly, because they are not; they are pathetic and disgusting. Even after trying so hard to do something well, to improvise, to learn, to understand, to achieve something, to have that blissful feeling of knowing something and most important to gain some confidence, not for anyone else, But for myself so can i can defend myself in this world and live with some pride and dignity..........

Life is getting complicated every single second and me instead of taking any step forward, moving backward with long strides and losing my confidence every step......

I know to do and achieve something, Man only needs confidence in his capabilities and confidence cannot be bought in market, cannot be developed in coaching classes, cannot be borrowed or stolen. Its like an inner strength deep inside the mesh and labyrinth of muscles, bones and flesh. Something spiritual; something too powerful.....

Expectations are also increasing linearly with speed of time. Not of others but of mine from myself. It's not failures which pisses me off but its the addiction to make mistakes, especially in crunch time and get screwed every time, even after preparing well!!

what shall i do? Consoling myself after every event(failure), crying for sometime, being alone and get screwed again next time Sucks.

Well i m gonna fight again and again no matter whatever happens......
Life goes on AND so I must also GO ON and ON.........