I m pissed

Sanity, what the hell why everyone is so obsessed with it? I don’t understand what so special in sanity and maturity that everyone and in every sphere of life people are crying for it?

In my opinion sanity sucks, it’s so mundane and chiche that it suck the out of life. It prevents you from doing what you wanted to do, it takes the real enthu from you and one starts giving more importance to what some else has said and ordained......

Screw him and all other preachers yaar, life has much more than blindly following some pigs. The social structure is formulated (as i see it) so that people can socialize better and its made for the people. But nowadays people are shaping themselves according to the society. Society is no longer for us and on the contrary we are here for society; to uphold its notions of life and living.

Today, one of my closest friends suggested me to behave properly and show some maturity as most of people are pissed becoz of me. Some are so angry at me that they can't tolerate me for a second and wanna smash me........

Frankly, I was amused and after that very very angry. I was totally knocked out. I was speechless that instant. There is really some misunderstanding somewhere. Basically as far as I know I am a very simple person. And more important all my friends know me much better that I know myself. I don’t like to be with a lot of people and generally keep with only 2-3 friends. I have my own definition of friendship. The most important is that infront of my friends I don’t have to use my brain and show maturity and sanity especially when we are talking. It should not be mandatory for any of us to make sense of everything we say or do. And also we should have the decency and freedom to express our resentment towards each other if we don’t like any particular thing we might say or do.

I don’t blame him for saying what he said, I think I mistakenly considered him as a friend. I apologies to all those who are pissed becoz of me and wanted to tell them plz stay away from me and tell me if I m again making the same mistake and I will try my best not to intrude in their life.

I have nothing to do with u idiots and u ppl dont exsist in my life and frankly don’t njoy with u guys and hope the same for you also………

Tye Tye

2nd year

The second year has began and began with it the "Don" of the insti feeling. This transition from being an outsider to the part of the insti family is most interesting part of the whole college life. First year generally went in fear and in studying as many are in culture shock as they come from small localities and small towns and the experience of adjusting among a batch of 240 is for most overwhelming. so many just stays in their room most of the time. Especially when many of batch mates are quite extraordinary and marks in all exams remain single digit.
The second year brings a sense of confidence as most of the adjustments are already done. Friends are made, things are settled and the position in the batch is also to an extent decided. So screw everyone, chil and njoy is the commonest notion. Also done with attending lectures and studies so lets bung some lectures and see whts on other side of the corridor. A tentative student gradually learns how to be a college student free of all tensions and why every one says that college life is the best part of any1's life.
Also starts the ragging sessions and trying something elses and time for showing creativity both from juniors and from us. Another very important things wid new batch comes new girls which are very scare resource in eng colleges. Already tired of watching same 10-20 girls for all 1 years some new faces is like new life line and new excitement.

Sleep

Sleep Sleep and more Sleep
One of the many things which i and almost all the guys and gulz of DAIICT are Pro in. Sleep is the ultimate salvation from the hectic and tyring schedule of the college. Here in 4 yeas we have got used to sleep of minimum 12 hrs a day!. Sleep is the only commodity which is free here. No matter whts going in the college the doors of angels of sleep are always open. Sleep during lecture, Tuts, Labs........
We are so much addicted to sleep that we cannot go for more than 14-16 hrs without sleeping.
No matter what we were doing and where we are - we can fall asleep nywhere, nytime.
Sleeping has its own advantage. Its help a lot in time of money crisis. which happens many times. The funda is simple: The more u sleep the the less the survival will cost. Especially when u have such good canteen like in DAIICT and can get nything 24x7. Earlier when we used to have labs and regular class we have to get up at 2:00pm as labs were compulsory. Who wants to study so lecture were daily bunged. lectures were only attended if we make a night out and wanna some change so lets go to lectures.
Now during our BTP as loads is very mild and from there previous experience the faculty is expecting minimum work is like all the bounds and previous records of sleeping gonna be broken soon. I myself is sleeping 12-14 hrs everyday. Sometime wake up, stuff something and sleep again...

Fight

what the hell yaar..... i failed once again. The mistakes i make everytime cannot be even termed as silly, because they are not; they are pathetic and disgusting. Even after trying so hard to do something well, to improvise, to learn, to understand, to achieve something, to have that blissful feeling of knowing something and most important to gain some confidence, not for anyone else, But for myself so can i can defend myself in this world and live with some pride and dignity..........

Life is getting complicated every single second and me instead of taking any step forward, moving backward with long strides and losing my confidence every step......

I know to do and achieve something, Man only needs confidence in his capabilities and confidence cannot be bought in market, cannot be developed in coaching classes, cannot be borrowed or stolen. Its like an inner strength deep inside the mesh and labyrinth of muscles, bones and flesh. Something spiritual; something too powerful.....

Expectations are also increasing linearly with speed of time. Not of others but of mine from myself. It's not failures which pisses me off but its the addiction to make mistakes, especially in crunch time and get screwed every time, even after preparing well!!

what shall i do? Consoling myself after every event(failure), crying for sometime, being alone and get screwed again next time Sucks.

Well i m gonna fight again and again no matter whatever happens......
Life goes on AND so I must also GO ON and ON.........