Catty

What the hell, cat is on at 9:30
The most difficult exam on earth
More than 2 lakhs ppl like me gonna sit for the exam
Out of which only less than 2 thousand gonna go
Rest r gonna go empty hand
With tears in eyes and chillness and emptiness in mind
With all the dreams scattered
And all the hopes crushed

I know I have no chance in cat
B’coz I m a big time sucker
And haven’t done any prep
Catty cat gonna screw me

In the name of prep I had attended some classes
Done some assignments and question
Worked for some sporadic hrs on some sporadic dazs
There is no continuity and balance
There is no mental perp and confidence

Haven’t done any good in mock cats
Given for the sake of only giving
B’coz others r giving
Never done any self assessment after 1 or 2 tests

How could a person like me dream of cat
With all the weakness and pathetic-ness
With no desire and aspirations
With only content of being in the box
Never daring to venture out…………

What shall I do in today’s exam?
Now when the judgment day has come
I slept enough and woke at 4:00Am
With panic all over my body and psyche

Now I m remembering all what my brother had told me
Thinking about the hopes and belief of my parents and family
How I’m gonna explain them
Reasons of me being a fiasco

A sense of guilt is gripping me
Just 4 hrs before the cat exam
And my mind swirling and whirling in
Oceans of formula’s and theorems and rules

But I have no idea
What I m trying to remember
I can’t remember anything
B’coz I never learnt anything

Lets see whats gonna happen
Chances r less
But I m trying to be strong
And hoping for the BEST……………………………..